I had a little procedure today.
Isn't that an odd sentence? Is that just something I say now because I have been working in a hospital for three years? Procedure. It's what people have.
Anyway, you know how I had
my naked photos taken, well they have already come in handy and today I had to go under the knife. Not really all that big a deal but as I hate needles and stuff I had to concentrate on not fainting and think of other things.
When you are told to think of something else it's really hard to think of something. So I tried to concoct a blog post in my head. What would I write, what could my next post be about? Nothing came to mind.
Should I write about stuff coming up for Easter? What about some reviews of stuff that I didn't like - is it nasty and bad karma to write about things I don't like? Would I make the makers of the stuff sad, hurt their feelings? It's not nice to say unkind things. Then again, should people be made aware of dodgy products so that don't waste money on stuff I don't like. But what if it is just me that doesn't like it and everyone else does - kind of like gin. I don't like gin, but I do like vodka, but lot's of other people like gin.
Perhaps I could write about how it felt when they were cutting, that it felt like she was drawing on me with a texta and even though it didn't hurt I was concentrating really hard on not moving and not fainting. I could write about my heart rate when she said we need to do "insert medical term I had not heard of" right now, have you had a pace maker? It's bleeding more than it should.
I could write about how nice the nurse was, I thought she was so friendly and made me really relaxed, I felt like we could be friends, if it was different circumstances we could go for lunch.
I laid there thinking of how this was such a simple procedure and it was still annoying to have to go through, my heart cracked a little for all the pain and suffering people with real illness have to cope with, for days and sometimes years on end.
Then before I knew it, 45 minutes was done and though I had one less mole on my freckled face, I still had no idea of what I could blog about next.
Oh wow..hope your ok.. Isn't it always the way when you have time to think you can never think of the important stuff(like a possible blog post)!!..in saying that, there are a lot of people that rave about being in the moment, mindfulness etc.. any way hope you are feeling ok and the results are the right ones xx
ReplyDeletethank you, I will be totally fine, a pretty routine thing, I am just so bad at needles and anything that might have blood.
DeleteGlad it's over. I absolutely get this - I've fainted at the sight of my own blood and have to go through all this stuff in my head just for a little blood test or something. Oh, and I'm having a bloggers block lately too!
ReplyDeleteGood that is is over Claire! Going through IVF I had many the procedure and blood test so I am ok with needles etc, so I have never had to think of something else. I am sure my mind would be able to do it though because every time I lie to go to sleep it goes crazy with thoughts.
ReplyDeleteYour thinking definitely got you through. My mind tends to race at a hundred miles per hour times this it would be a good thing! Hope your recovering is quick and stress free x
ReplyDeleteThanks Jodi, I will be good as gold in no time at all, it's quite the skill to get your mind to think less or more isn't it?
DeleteMaybe you just needed to blog, to process what happened or to chat to someone. Hope you are feeling ok. I had 3 moles cut out of my body when I was 13 or 14, a day procedure but still your mind races away...hope you take it easy tonight. xx
ReplyDeleteI'd never felt like fainting in my life until I had kids and had to see them suffering a procedure. Three times it's happened. Must be something to do with over-empathising. Glad to hear you survived!
ReplyDeleteYou got rid of a mole! Is this the mole that's bothered you for awhile? I don't like gin either and sometimes wonder why people like it so much. They don't just like it though, do they? They are evangelically enamoured with it. It's bizarre.
ReplyDeleteHospitals are very sobering places aren't they. And a reminder how good we all have it, well those of us who have great health.
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